Like that time you got dragged from the bar by the collar so outside
your shirt was bunched around your ears and the indecision of
whether to pull it off or fix it ruined the rhythm of the fight. Still
had your lip punched open. Sat at the front of the bus on the way home
with your polo shirt blood spotted, drunkenness ebbing away and
holding in your lap a feeling like heartbreak. Like that time you found
your bird at the bottom of its cage, eyes shut, breaths shallow. Kissed
it then turned its head on its neck because you had somewhere to be.
And you knew after a month or maybe just a few weeks you were better off apart
but kept at it anyway.Kept at all of it, because she did
things like kiss you on the knuckles then whisper: you have the hands
of a pianist. Like that time as a child under the tin carport, the
clatter of rain overhead, you collected snails in a pile while an old
aunt died inside the house. In an art class a few years later, rain at
the windows, and the teacher ran his charcoal tipped fingers through
his hair, reached for a new stick of chalk, and said, let me tell you a
story: whether we know it or not we hunt for the sensual.
Tristan Foster is a writer from Sydney, Australia. His debut short story collection Letter to the Author of the Letter to the Father was published from Transmission Press. He is co-editor-in-chief of 3:AM Magazine.